#15 15th January 2026

Uhm so right now idk why but i feel overwhelmed like so much has happened.

Oh yeah the guy i was gonna write about, i don't think i will. Damn, he turned out to be trans like bruh why, why does it happen to me? Why can't i just have some love like i want? He was really a good guy, he is actually. No one has ever treated me like this. I felt so much loved, I really didn't wanna end it but yeah. One thing fs he has made my standards even higher; he did set the bar high up. Idk if I'll ever meet someone like him who'd love me unconditionally but yeah it was a nice time. 

RIGHT NOW I JUST FEEL LIKE CRYING A LOT (oh yeah its just those days of the month and thats why im even more sensitive, and all i want to do is cry) My emotions i cant control em rn and i would prob cry over small things.

AND YEAH MR. MISHRA IF YOU ARE READING THIS WHATEVER YOU THINK I SAID IS HURTING YOU TRUST ME I DON'T MEAN IT FULLY DAMN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW PRECIOUS YOU ARE FOR ME 

AND WHEN YOU SAY IT HURTS YOU, IT SCARES ME EVEN MORE THAT YOU'LL LEAVE ME. I REALLY FEEL LIKE SAYING SORRY RIGHT NOW. 

I SHOULD PROB JUST THINK BEFORE I SAY THINGS RANDOMLY. AH IM SUCH A FOOL 

**cries even more** 

Ah whats into me today why do i just feel like crying, im very irritated i just want someone to hug and comfort me😭😭✋️

There are somedays where you just want to be in someones embrace bruhhhh chodo yaar bleh i js wanted to jot down things cause my mind is a mess and a lot of unnecessary thoughts are piled up.